Dancing around your honey drip words
How long has it been? I’ve lost count, I think it has been months since we last seen each other and catch up. Sometimes, I can’t help but to wonder whether you are doing well. It’s like this feeling where you have grown accustomed to someone and you do care for them despite the distance and circumstances. Your thoughts just can’t help but to swim into this deep puddle of wondering “what if” from time to time.
But after months of being away, I am at ease knowing that you taught me the greatest lesson in life. I remembered the addictive feeling of ups and down whenever I am around you. Even the slightest thing that concerned you used to be able to throw me out of whack, I used to drown in your honey drip word that lure me in but if I were to be honest with myself before the sweetness can touch my taste bud, the real bitterness consumed me whole.
But at the point in time, I choose to believe it was all lovely and drown out all the bitterness thinking it might just be a bad aftertaste. Now, the immediate moment I taste any bitterness, I learnt the hard way to walk away from the alluring temptation even if it waver my heart.
People around me never understand our connection. I never really understood it myself either. It definitely took me a long while to stop dancing around this addictive ups and downs that almost spin me out of control. I stopped dancing, I started taking a solid step at a time even if it meant taking a longer while to reach the spark.
But today, I woke up feeling a sensation that I haven’t experience in awhile.
I woke up feeling refresh and renew, it took me awhile to get to where I am today but this freedom away from you made me realized that I deserved better.
I am glad that we can both be in a happier place because we clearly deserved happiness.